I'm not one to throw pity parties however, I am human...
Therefore, I do need to vent every once in a while.
This might sound very cliche` but I feel as if I am always the odd one out, and not in a good unique way.
Even surrounded in a crowd of familiar faces, I feel detached.
I feel nearly invisible.
Yet I'm clearly solid and made of flesh.
I feel close to isolated.
Yet I'm obviously not alone on this Earth.
I feel ugly.
Yet I have a belief that every one has beauty.
I sometimes dread waking up, because I know that when I do it will lead to another day of emptiness.
Don't get me wrong, I am happy and I appreciate life, I just always feel like there is something missing...
Regardless of what others say, I feel like no one understands.
I feel like I am a throw away kid sometimes...
I feel like the sooner I leave this place the better.
I feel like a locked door whose key lies on the inside.
I don't want to be recycled, but I feel as though it would be easy for others to throw me in the bin...
I feel like I need to escape.
I feel that though this may not be the place for me, there is a place for me... and maybe these people can't fully understand me, but somewhere there is someone who does...
My soul needs to travel and explore.
I am an outsider.
But with all that said it seems to be that...
"In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different."
-Coco Chanel
And no one person is just like another.
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